Amani Ballour, a doctor and the director of a field hospital in Eastern Ghouta.

We had the feelings of sadness and oppression to leave al Ghouta and to see the victory of the wrong and how the world betrayed and abandoned us. I was also thinking how we would move to an unknown place. I have never been in Idlib before, how would our life be there? Where would we stay? I expected to return to the life of shelling and to see wounded people and carnage on a daily basis.
I felt hatred towards the soldiers and officers we saw in the buses and at the checkpoints. I thought they were the ones who had been bombing us for years.
They were under the control of Russian officers, I saw how they obey their orders. I was thinking how they brought the occupation to this country.
I was not afraid of them. My biggest concern was losing al Ghouta.
We were harassed when we passed some pro-regime villages, they were cursing us and throwing stones. I was very proud then that I was leaving to Idlib, those cannot be our homeland partners.
The trip was very long and tiring.
I saw life going normally outside the walls of al Ghouta, everything was available, electricity, food, cars, schools and cafes. I have not seen this in years, children can play outside the house and under the sun.
Everyone in the convoy was sad to leave al Ghouta but there was some relief to get out after the horrors and atrocities they saw, and after the great efforts they made to be able to leave in the buses to Idlib.
I was deeply alienated when I arrived. I got off the bus, it was night and raining heavily. We stopped in the street for a while waiting for someone to help us. It was a very painful moment. For a moment. I felt I had lost everything. I began to feel alienated from the first moment.
I left al Ghouta with some members of my family, I do not feel sorry at all, I cannot go back to the life of slavery under the control of criminals, murderers and occupation.
I hope we can liberate the entire Syrian land and return to our homes and land safe, live in dignity like all human beings, have rights and work for the country we love and do not feel that we are slaves of a ruling family.

Amani Ballour, a doctor and the director of a field hospital in Eastern #Ghouta.

Photo: Displaced people arriving to Al-Bab in Aleppo countryside, by: Sameer Al-Doumy / AFP